L’autre Côté du Miroir

i've been thinking of relationships and stuff. we avoid situations, or engagements, that could cause us harm, in other words, pain. i think i'm rational, but with people i'm all about emotions, i simply cannot base my decisions on sense, i am forced to go with what i feel like.

obviously, sometimes going with feelings rather than brain causes extra pain. but, isn't it so that we only feel bad if there was a counter emotion? such as positive expectations, positive experiences... anything with endorphin. you feel bad after being cheated by your bf/gf because you loved them and trusted them. can someone whom you don't care about hurt you? i doubt it, not much anyway. we feel heartbroken because we first feel in love. the negative cannot appear without the positive. the same goes for friendships and all.

in addition, cheating is more common that people would like to think. either that or i just always end up talking with 'cheaters'. i think people divide themselves in 2 categories, those who cheat and those who don't. but i don't agree, anyone might do it, not all do, but i think most end up cheating in their lifetime. the problem is, cheating is considered 'really fuckin bad' and while i agree it's not nice, there must be something natural to it because it occurs so often.

obviously there's a time for everything and everything comes to an end. i think something came to an end and i suppose i'm glad it did. it's so hard to let go and i admit i'm not good at that, i should be grateful if someone does it for me. horrible to admit i'm feeling really good... i wish i could remember this time and these days later on... life is rarely this easy. am i on drugs?

aaaaaaanyway, i found good music today and i'm not busy with anything, no responsibilities... nobody expecting anything from me. what else can you ask for? a good photo... i shouldn't have asked myself that.